I don't think ive ever felt so alone.
lately, i just feel left out of everything. Im constantly stressed, and just hate life.

I want to quit my job because i just don't fit in there anymore; sometimes (meaning most of the time) i feel like im hated there, I just feel hostility, always, from everybody. Maybe im just imagining it, i don't know, but i just cant help it. When im there, i am almost always in a bad mood...I can't deal with it anymore.

Im stressed out from school. My grades are low, and lately i just don't even seem to care
what is wrong with me?
i am very aware that i am capable of accomplishing good marks and doing well, i just need the "ummph" to do it. I was doing so well at the beginning, i read and did everything, and then something happened- i don't know what. But ive been slipping, and i really need to work on that. Maybe quitting work would give me that boost, but then i couldn't afford school.
I guess thats out of the question.

What bothers me most?
i have no best friend anymore. I don't have anybody that i feel comfortable going to about everything, or somebody that tells me about their everything. And even though i have other bestfriends, they were never or most likely will ever be like sarah. Sarah was my best friend in the world, for 16 years, and after our thing in the summer, they will never be the same. She still considers me her best friend, but i guess we don't see the term in the same way, i want a best friend to be there to talk to all the time, whenever i want, about anything. But the only time we ever talk anymore, is online..about nothing.
i hate it. I hate not having a real bestfriend.