i hate this,
i hate how things have turned out. i hate how everything turns out.
life is so stupid.
im so unhappy with myself; the way i look, my weight, pretty much everything there is. im not good at trying to be better, if you can eve say that i even try. i sometimes wonder if im just going to be alone for the rest of my life (thats probably how it will turn out) shit like that just makes me feel even worse. im not in a good mood today.
life is pointless, however i feel like i put on a good show for people most days.






also, i was just reading through old posts saying how "i loved life" and shit like that.
i must be bipolar.