ive said what i need to say to you, and really there is nothing else. i wish i could say that i was upset, but im not...i love you, but. there will always be that "but", you havent been there when your friends needed you, we were always here for you (through everything) but as soon as everything was okay, its like we didnt exist anymore, or when you felt like it was time for us to exist again, we were just sort of "something to do" while the "boys" were busy. i got sick of it, so confronted you on my last straw; you didnt even wish "your bestfriend" a happy birthday, and you didnt even say "im sorry to hear what happened" to another "bestfriend", and dont even tell me that you forgot what was important, thats the lamest excuse ive ever heard from anybody. plain and simple, as much as im the type of person to comfort somebodyl im not going to be there for you because i now know that you wont ever be there for me.
i have just spent the past 2 hours researching stuff on Trinity College Dublin, it sounds absoloutley amazing. and it just makes me want Ireland more and more, I honestly have no idea what I will do with my life if i dont get accepted. heartbroken. i dont even know what it is about Ireland that interests me so much, it just does, and ive never wanted anything so much in my life as I do now.
Jess, I love you; and im sorry that I had no idea what to even say to you. but im here, i hope you always know that.
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