way to emotional lately, about everything.
i wish that i could change the way that i feel about myself, how insecure i am about everything- but i cant, and ive tried...and i just dont know what to do anymore. its every little thing, just building up inside of me, i tell myself that you think differently of me because of my size, and i tell myself that you judge me based on everyting that i do because of my weight.

its been bugging me a lot lately how you tried telling me that I was a bad friend, how i was never their for you. im not sure whether you were trying to feel better about yourself by thinking that i wasnt worth it to you. let me tell you something, i am an excellent friend, i am there for anybody that needs me at anytime during the day or night. you did this, you got yourself involved in something that wasn't your business and you tried to make it seem like it was all of my fault. you are a drama filled bitch, and i would have remembered something like that.
so why do i sometimes second guess myself?