and its what hurts the most, when its coming from you anyway.

i sometimes think about it yanoo, what if. would it actually happen/ is it really what i want.
i hate you, i hate you so much. should i really be saying that about my father? i cant help it...your nothing but a fucking bastard. i hate this house (the only thing thats keeping me here is not being able to afford anywhere else) and my mom and brother of course. but you chage her, she's so much better without you.

im sorry that my behaviours hurt you mom, but i have no other way to act. i got nothin, i can't treat him with respect when he doesn't treat anybody else with respect- and maybe i do take it out of line, but i know nothing else and im sorry that im the only one that ever does anything about the way i feel.