im just a huge stressball lately, from the beginning i was told that my plane ticket was being paid for because of everything that they pay for, for my brother. and dont get me wrong, i was ecstatic and wasnt expecting that at all- it was just something that i was going to do on my own. now, im told that i am expected to pay half...and that was the deal from the beginning. it wasnt, i would clearly remember being told that i was expected to pay half...i wouldnt have bought my new glasses or the different things that i have boughten. gahhh, just stress. they say that they will just take care of it now, when i told them that i really just dont have the money for that; but i hate that. i hate the thought of other people having to take care of me.

im so grateful, but this just drives me insane.

laaaahlahlaahh! back on that topic again, i just want to fall in love. i was somebody to be mine. i just want it before i become to old. haate this all.