whadaya want from me.

i kind of wish i knew what my life was going to be like..
am i doing whats right for my future? when am i going to feel like i have a purpose, and that im meant for somebody or something. am i ever going to be truly happy?
im twenty years old, in 10 years ill be 30; and really, thats no time at all. i dont want to be one of those old people just starting to have kids, i want to do it now...while im young. i just want something that will make this all worth while.