I don't know what to think- im pretty sure that there are no feelings, but for some reason I cant stop. however, i think it's starting to take a toll on me. I use to judge these people, and now I am one of them. I'm not very proud of myself.

On another note, I'm starting to reevaluate who I really trust. there are some things I know already about what you do and I've never judged because that's not who I am, and I love you to death- but could you be doing this to me as well? trust me, I've never second guessed it before, but while lying in bed the other morning I was given the impression that there is a little jealousy on your part- but not only that.. it's that you've made attempts of acting on it. whether or not to believe it though.. is the real question.

I hope not, your my bestfriend.