im terrified to leave, and im scared to tell anybody that. ive been thinking alot lately about having to leave everybody behind, and i just sit here and cry about it; it makes me afraid that things could change with my other friends. but saying that, im still so excited- i still cant wait to get out of here. i sometimes just wish that i could have it both ways, get out of this small shitty town and be with my friends at the same time.


on a different note, your kind of really lame lately. yes, im talking about my father.
your never home, and when you are you yell and complain and drink really more than is necessary. im afraid that your becoming what your father was, and i cant help but hate you for it. every little thing you do, i lash out...and i apologize for being a bitch- but i cant take your ways anymore. it puts way to much stress on this family.




"and its hard to say that id rather be awake when im asleep, because nothing is ever as it seems"