fifty-two

i know that this is really dumb, but i was just looking at a map and i am going so far away!
obviously i knew that it was really far, and across an ocean and all of that jazz, but really, it makes it so surreal. i'm leaving the country for a whole year and i don't know how i am going to do it; of course i know that this is what i want and im not going to back down from it and i will stay the whole time, but i am terrified. i really have no idea how im going to leave everybody that i love for so long. less than two months away, holy shit.

'i wont back down'