its nights like these ones that i cannot wait to get out of this country; away from this family and all this bullshit that just seems to get let out on me, the nights where i feel worthless and like im not even wanted or needed here. i know, i know how lame all of that sounds and "yaya of course you mean somthing", but thats not the point. the point is how i get made feel sometimes, the things that are said really do make me feel like all i am is a burden on this family. sure; im a bitch or a witch (however the fuck you put it) but who isn't? i treat people the way that they treat me, i lash out when someone wrongs me or is annoying me and other times i just keep quiet. im the one that sticks up for you (both of you) and all i get is this? i dont expect much. but i also dont expect to be made feel like i am so horrible. because that is how i feel right now.
one things for sure; i was not born into the right family, i just want someone to talk to...i just want to feel like im not lame when all i want to do is talk about my feelings.
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