a wise girl

placement is over in a week, 5 days until im done with college. and then life begins.
i don't want life to begin, i want to stay right where i am for eternity. i don't want to have to know what i want for the rest of my life at such a young age; all i know is that i want to be happy, and that i want to see the world, i want to make a difference in people's lives, and i want to fall in love. but how do i do that? why did i have to be so afraid before? ive seen so much; unhappiness, physical abuse, sexual abuse, emotional abuse (within my group of friends), and it just made me afraid. so now i sit here alone, because im to much of a scaredy cat to take chances.

a wise girl; kisses, but doesnt love, listens, but doesn't believe, and leaves before she is left.
-marilyn monroe