Just got hooked up with internet... so the past couple days of just been writing in wordpad...

Wednsday (at thee airport)
Today was probably the hardest day of my life thus far, I hate goodbyes more than anything and their are eight of them that I had to do today! Jess, mom, nan and the girls were by far the hardest; mostly mom though! I could see the hurt in her eyes all day, and i hate more than anything to hurt her...she is so wonderful! The day also seemed to drag on quite a big; as mom put it ..."its like waiting for a funeral to begin". morbid, but sort of true.

This is going to be good for me, I can feel it because ive let the tears run dry and I am starting to be okay.