i should really stop dwelling on whats happening back home. i know that even if i were there, there is really nothing i could be doing anyway. please just be okay nanny.


went out lastnight with some people that i met to get my mind off of things...watched the world cup at a public viewing place (germany goes crazyy for soccer- you should see the streets when they win) i actually dont mind watching soccer- i actually really enjoy it. rode 2hours away from where im living to a place called Dortmand in a van that was bought specifically for the world cup and painted and all decked out in germany colours and flags with sirens playing and loud music. drinking in the car (not the driver) is actually legal here, never thought id see the day...but ive done it now! after the game (germany won by the way) people piled in the van and there were 4dangling out the trunk with it open and we got pulled over by the police. we were there for like an hour and police were yelling at us...thank gad they stopped talking to me once they realized that im canadian and nobody ended up getting charged.

also, when did i get so old that guys i was interested in and seemed to be interested in me and lots of flirting was happening ended up being married? please tell me this! fuck germany, fuck guys...im going to be a crazy cat lady.