its over.
for about a month now, out of nowhere.. with no provocation.

he didn't even tell me, just started hitting the ignore and posted Facebook status' about "needing to be a better man".

I'm okay now, still have my days. the only thing that i wish were different, is that he would have told me, not been a coward and said "hey, i think i really need to man up and be there more for my family" rather than just ignore me. I know it wouldn't have made it any easier, i would have been just as heartbroken, but it would have at least made me feel that i didn't just waste two and a half years on a filthy no for good coward.

i still can't hate him though. &probably almost guarantee that if he said go- i would jump.
and be with him.

i thought i had a lot more respect for myself, i guess love does do fucked up things to you.


the last time...
i wouldn't have even known it was the last time, he kissed me goodbye- said "ill see you soon" and even made jokes about "needing a new roommate" (we got close to getting caught). we were together longer than we ever have been before and now its just "over".